Rehab

I've always been the one to take care of everyone else. It's been that way since I was very young. I've been independent & taking care of everyone else for the last 18 years. I'm 24 now, and it's time for me to allow someone take care of me.
I have been an Alcoholic/Cutter/Burner since I was 20. I've done the band-aid quick fix options like Alcoholics Anonymous several times, and I'd stay sober for a few weeks/months. Than I would relapse once the pressure became too great. Everyone has their triggers, and mine are emotional. So mine are more frequent, more constant, less predictable and harder to treat.
I made the decision to admit myself for voluntary rehabilitation just 48 hours ago. I've gone back & forth on my decision several times since then, but I know it's for the best. I've tried doing it on my own, but now I realize I can't. My pride has taken a hard hit.
I guess my point in writing this is to say that it's never too late.

I'm Still Here

I'm okay, I'm alright
Hurricanes and trainwrecks only last one night
Would you believe all I've been through?
Had the hands of tempted fate
Oh, if you only knew
What it costs, how I wait
What I got, what I gave

Chorus:
I'm still here...
After the heartache, after the storm blew through
I kept me and it saved me
I'm still standin', right where you left me
On a cold dark cloud, with nowhere to fall but down
Like a single, naked unrelenting tear...
I'm still here

There was darkness, all around me
There were times I was sure I was drowning
There were people, who tried to reach me
But no matter how they loved me, I kept sinking
I got tired on my own hand, I reached inside and I saved myself

[Chorus]

This time I can survive.
I ain't dying on nobody else's cross
I ain't sufferin' no more unforgivin' loss
Oh, no.

I'm still here...
After the heartache, after the storm blew through
I kept me and it saved me
And I'm still standin', right where you left me
On a cold dark cloud, with nowhere to fall but down
Like a single, naked unrelenting tear...
I'm still here
I'm still here